happy second day of fall to you. i'd like to take a moment to share something i wrote as a means to be honest with myself. i hope you don't mind:
last night i slept with a running mind. i was tired. i was sleepy. i was cranky. those three combined does not make for a very cheerful person, which i usually like to be. i truly despise myself when the evil comes out to play- to toy with my mind and more importantly my words. it's shameful.
i don't think i have mentioned this before on my blog, but other than living with my parents and two brothers, i also live with my maternal grandparents. yes, that's seven of us in one house. i don't mind it, it's nice to have a full house. except when i'm tired, sleepy, and cranky. except when people decide to display their bad moods. you get the picture.
now you may ask what is a college graduate still doing living at home? i get asked that question a lot. well traditionally in our culture, any girl is expected to live at home till she gets married. and while i certainly don't expect myself living at home till that happens i certainly don't mind it for now. thank you economy.
last night i snapped. i'm human and i am prone to do so, no denying there. the length of my patience frays at the ends once and awhile, due to my tired, sleepy, and cranky self. i'm not trying to make excuses, i'm stating the facts. i'm just glad i didn't snap as hard as i could have like a delicate snap pea.
i won't bore you with the details of the incident. there's no need as it ended as quickly as it came. if i could rewind the clock, i wish in the split second i had i could have reminded myself of the same advice i am about to write here:
a split second is a second. life is still life. i suppose what i'm trying to ultimately say is i wish i could be perfect always as tired, cranky, and sleepy as i am. but i know that wouldn't happen in a perfect world no matter what. this small moment i've experienced has prompted to tell myself to simply be kind no matter what in any given situation. if someone irks you, be kind. if someone says a hurtful thing to you, be kind. if someone tries to degrade you, be kind. "be kind" should be the most important rule in life. all this especially matters when it involves the ones you love most. i wish i were a strong enough person to have realized this. as annoying as the situation was to me, i wish i could have easily brushed it away much like i do with other silly notions.
the next time i experience this, i hope i'm stronger to remember the exact words which i write here. i rather rack up good karma points for kindness than bad ones.
i have digressed here from the typical morning coffee. i have simply written this post for myself as a reminder to always embody kindness. either way, i hope this post makes sense to you and speaks to you in some way.
that's my inspirational spiel for you this morning. whew, that was a breather. back to routine, here are some of my favorite links from the internet today:
what 21 women were doing at the age of 25
an act of kindness for a deserving grandfather
15 things you didn't know about starbucks
what happy people do
this chipotle ad has me thinking about the way we eat
and lucky magazine's best emmy looks- love all of these!
be kind. happy monday to you.